Return of the Fog

Ever since I was diagnosed with depression in 2003, I have made it my mission to talk about it.

Well, I kept it quiet for a few weeks.

Then I talked about it.

I knew that fighting the stigma was going to be a huge part of my healing. I realized quickly that other people found strength in my fight. And I like to talk.

I’ve been especially diligent about Daylight Savings Time, and how it can effect those of us with depression. I’ve talked about it here. And here. And I remind my friends. And I remind myself.

It’s funny, then, that the following conversation took place with my husband a few days ago.

Me: I am so tired lately. And I sort of have a headache. I’m not depressed. I just can’t concentrate.

Ryan: Yeah. Time change.

You would think that after posting reminders to all of my friends. Reposting my blogs. Reminding myself. You would THINK. That I could remember. Ever, One time.

But that’s the thing about the fog. You can’t recognize it from the inside. And it always takes a little longer to set in than I remember. So i think I’ve made it to the other side, and I’m really just starting.

If you looked at my calendar every single year for my entire life all the way back to high school, you would see blank pages the few weeks after daylight savings time. And while I have managed to participate in the world this March a little more actively than March’s of Daylight Savings past… I just could not wrap my brain around a blog.

Now, as we head into April this week (birthday month! Wohoo!) the fog is beginning to lift. I have continued working on challenges, and will have plenty to share starting tomorrow.

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